When everything is crappy…

This morning, we had some extra special moments.  Alright, they were crappy moments.  First, I woke up to a horrible smell.  My husband, who had been up doing school, took the cat and tossed her out of the room because he claimed she had let one rip.  Maybe ten minutes later, I discovered she had not just passed gas.  She had laid a nice present on the bedspread.  Awesome.

Well, we moved on fairly smoothly.  A quick pick up (thankful it wasn’t diarrhea) and toss into the washer and we were good.  I went on to have time with the Lord.  I had a good time of receiving, with Him speaking to some of my fears (this could be its own blog post), and moved into the day.

I heard a groan from the bedroom as I am getting ready in the bathroom.  Benaiah has had a blow out, and Andy is getting a bit overwhelmed.  I enter the bedroom and the thing I see is the smear of poop on the white bedspread.   ARGH!  I just can’t even…

I don’t know about you, but sometimes anger hits so strong, I don’t even have words.  When I finally found the words, I went on about how I JUST cleaned that bedspread, how hard it is to clean because it balls up and I have to untwist it, and how incredibly hard it is to get it on the duvet.  I wanted desperately to be okay with it all and to move past it, but it was like my brain couldn’t.  I am still venting, not too loudly but emphatically.  I pass my daughter sitting in front of the Christmas tree with her stuffed animals and staring at me with slight fear.  Ugh.  I say “Hi” in a completely different tone.  She doesn’t buy it.  I head to the laundry room, curl up, and cry.

I hate that what I do and say could be messing my kids up.  I hate it.  And I take that pressure on my self everyday.  Which makes me an even more tightly-wound and easily-angered person.  It is a bad cycle.

Andy comes and kneels down.  He tells me, it’s ok.  It’s okay to be upset about crap on the bed, twice in one day.  It’s okay.  And that permission helped me.  That and the crying.  It helped release all the pressures.  He assured me that Leli still loves me and doesn’t see me as a horrible person.  I was tempted to doubt everything that he said, but I couldn’t afford to.  I needed to believe it.  The same way that I need to believe what God says when He says I don’t have to be afraid.  He holds my soul.  And maybe you need to believe that today too.

If you needed this today, here is a link to a podcast that was super timely for today:

Don’t Mom Alone podcast- Not Alone in Overwhelm

Marriage, Motherhood

Isn’t It Romantic…

It started with bath time.  It usually does.  My sister bought us a bluetooth speaker, and bathtime has been a musical experience ever since.

Andy started singing “Looks like we made it…Look how far we’ve come, my baby…”  I hear him in the kitchen and start looking it up on Spotify.  A few wrong searches finally gets me to “You’re still the one” by Shania Twain, and it starts up on the speaker.  Continue reading “Isn’t It Romantic…”


Time Together

I laughed out loud at Beracah’s mention of my advice to them when they got married. “Go on a date weekly”? I don’t remember writing that and I doubt we did it at that point. Of course, we didn’t have kids, so we may have come close. I was, however, quite pregnant when they got married and maybe suffering from some sort of estrogen-induced delirium.

But now, it’s definitely not a thing. We shoot for once a month and did not achieve that for a long time. But this year for Valentine’s Day I planned out 12 dates – once a month for a year – and presented a package of envelopes to my husband laying out each one. Continue reading “Time Together”

Blogging, Friendship

Ain’t Nothing Like the Real Thing

I am in a yo-yo relationship with blogging, and I apologize.  Sometimes I lack inspiration.  Sometimes I don’t have time when I am inspired.  Ninety percent of the time I am in a battle as to whether what I write will matter, offend, or simply waste my time and yours.  So, I did what any typical woman would do ( I think…), I phoned a friend. 😉 Continue reading “Ain’t Nothing Like the Real Thing”

Homemaking, Motherhood

Entertainment for the Multitasker: podcasts I love.

Last week we shared favorite TV shows and movies for kids… but what’s a mom to do for entertainment? I’m the first one to go for a great Netflix binge (usually while folding 4,589 baskets of laundry), but that’s not always an option. I also enjoy reading a good book, but the multi-tasking possibilities are drastically reduced. Confession: today, I let my kids run wild while I read the last 100 pages of a thrilling novel. When I finished, every single toy we own was out, dishes were removed from cupboards, a fort was built, and my 2-year-old had painted her own face with watercolors. #noregrets Continue reading “Entertainment for the Multitasker: podcasts I love.”


An Octopus in the Neighborhood (and other things we see on TV)

TV. I think it’s one of the greatest parenting conundrums; how much do you let your kids watch, when, and why? I think my kids’ pediatrician told me last month that no more than one hour a day is recommended. I’m here to tell you that sometimes we go over that limit. I try not to… but it’s just so easy. I am able to accomplish ridiculous amounts of things when my baby is sleeping, my oldest is watching TV, and my middle child is doing her little introverted thing. (At two years old, she still has no interest in TV. I consider it a mixed blessing.) BUT I strive very hard not to let it be a babysitter, and I try to carefully curate what shows he watches. Continue reading “An Octopus in the Neighborhood (and other things we see on TV)”


Currently Watching…

Okay.  I am going to just get the disclaimer out of the way.  We try to avoid TV as much as we can…I have a love/hate relationship with it.  I love that it gives me time to clean up, have time alone, get dressed, etc.  I hate that my son is hypnotized by it and that it becomes a babysitter for me.  So, I try to limit it to certain times of day.  However, since my daughter is a virtual sponge, I am also trying to be pretty wise about what she sees during those times.  This is hard to do unless I am right there watching with her- which I do sometimes to talk her through things.  So, I thought I would share some go-to shows that I can trust to help me educate AND entertain my daughter while teaching valuable lessons.  PLEASE SHARE YOURS TOO!  Cuz there are only so many times we can watch something…or so I thought before I had kids. 😛 Continue reading “Currently Watching…”

Homemaking, Motherhood

Life Hacks – organizing toys, labeling food, making dinner easy, and bakon.

We all need to simplify life a little bit… here are a few of the things I do to make my days a little more simple. These are helpful for anyone – mom or not – but I think they’re especially useful if you are juggling small children along with everything else going on in life. (don’t literally juggle your kids…) Continue reading “Life Hacks – organizing toys, labeling food, making dinner easy, and bakon.”